Blue Winter Forever

I was in the winter of my life when I decided to die.

Not to die in a physical way but in a Mehta physical state.

And, when I think of that time I can’t barely remember who I was.

A naive kid thinking that the world was mine, that nothing was above me and nothing could touch me.

I became to realise that I was only a kid living in a winter for forever.

So, I decided to change. To find a way of breaking out of that black hole of unwanted thoughts where I was falling deeper every time.

But there I was and there You are.

And, if I say that I don’t wanted that way I would be lying because you were there with me. Now you are just a shadow of a past that seems a part of an another life.

But, there I was and there You are.

You see, I Was able to accept myself, I found a way to live with the darkness inside me. You didn’t. You are still living a lie, scared to move one feet. Scared to breath. Scared to live. The things that are unexpected are the things that are worthy living for.

But there I was and there you are.

in a small town café where we used to spend most of our days/nights/life.

And there you are waiting for something that may never happen.

And there you are waiting on an unfortunate hope that will never came.

And there you are in a place we called ourselves home.

And there I am living in a blue winter Forever.